All week, I’ll be participating in the 6thannual Dblog Week, brainchild of my friend, Karen Graffeo over at Bittersweetdiabetes.com. It’s a wonderful way to connect with others in the diabetes online community by reading other folks’ thoughts on the same subject. At the bottom of each of my posts I’ll post a link to take you to a long list of blogs you can check out.
Clean it out
Yesterday we kept stuff in, so today let’s clear stuff out. What is in your diabetic closet that needs to be cleaned out? This can be an actual physical belonging, or it can be something you’re mentally or emotionally hanging on to. Why are you keeping it and why do you need to get rid of it?
Guilt. Deep-seated, totally misplaced, gut-wrenching guilt. No matter how much I learn. Regardless of the countless times I read that it wasn’t my fault. My brain can tell me that I’m not to blame, but my heart can’t let go of the guilt.
If I’d been a healthier eater. If I only loved to run. If I just didn’t find processed carbs so addicting. If only. If only. I can’t let it go.
Silly, isn’t it? Emotions are an amazingly strong thing. I can build myself up and it only takes one stray comment or implied slight to cause me to buy into the misplaced guilt that is heaped upon those of us who have developed type 2 diabetes.
Why can’t I let it go? Because it’s easy to believe the bad stuff. It’s easy to take the blame. It’s hard to fight the stigma and sometimes I just cave.
I have to let it go because it’s untrue and unhealthy. Someday, maybe. Someday.
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